I felt like everyone was looking at me when I walked toward the restaurant. I wondered if I looked cool. I wondered if I looked hot. I wondered if I looked drunk. These people are cooler than me because they all have plans with friends on a Friday night. Also today is St. Patrick’s Day. I did have two different Tinder matches invite me out, but I said no.

On the way home I thought of my ex and how I told him I hoped he’d never be happy. I hoped he didn’t tell his friends I said that, because it sounds kind of crazy. What I meant was I don’t think he is capable of being happy and I want to be right about that.

When I got out of the car, I accidentally looped the carabiner on my keychain around the handles of the to-go bag. I had to hold the bag up to the door to get the key in the lock. Baba wasn’t waiting at the door for me.