I’m trying to decide if I want to make something to eat or not. There’s nothing wrong with being equally open to either idea. I can eat or not eat and I won’t be any more pleased or comfortable with either one of them. Choosing not to eat doesn’t make me controlled or smart and choosing to eat doesn’t make me undisciplined or bad. I’m not ready to make a decision and have to feel burdened either way. While I am equally weighing both options, I’m at peace because I haven’t done anything yet that I’m going to have to deal with. I still have time. I want to not eat because it’s the healthier choice and also eating when I’m not hungry but just bored makes me uncomfortable. In the time it took to write this, I have been able to decide to sit back down and not eat anything.